Many thanks for all the heartfelt comments on the last post.
The house feels so much emptier, but I have been keeping myself busy. I've donated some old books and clothes and deep cleaned the fridge. I've been catching up with friends. I've been paying so much attention to Rufus that he's sick of me, which just makes me want to cuddle him more, because he's even cuter when he's grumpy. And I've gone on walks when there have been warm days. There is color everywhere, all sorts of flowers sneaking out of the green. It seems like only yesterday there were none at all.